For a long time I have viewed our VISA situation as hopeless and crappy, which for at least some part it has been. But yesterday I managed to apply for 4 jobs, and today I had a phone meeting with a consultant at Arbetsförmedlingen and even though I haven't gotten a response from any employers yet I felt a bit more positive about things. I met with Mikaela and we spoke about Functional Medicine and shared tips on how to deal with a LDR (Long Distance Relationship) and then I had a nice pizza dinner at Vezzo with Lovisa.
On the bus to town to meet Lovisa I overheard some new med-students talking about medschool and I got jealous of them but inspired and excited at the same time! I felt in my gut that I am slowly but surely taking the baby steps towards my dream, especially since I registered to do högskoleprovet yesterday as well! All the meetings with caring friends also really did alot for me today.
After the dinner with Lovisa I felt energetic enough to walk to Aksel's place, where I'm sleeping. On the walk here it was -8C but I didn't mind. Just taking my time walking through town, looking into people's houses (not in a creepy way) and just imagining about our own place once we finally reach that goal, whenever it'll be. And it feels like such a relief because I haven't really allowed myself to be positive about it all in quite a while, so feeling the light emotions of ease flow through my chest was a welcome, and sorely missed sensation.
We'll figure things out, if we just have the patience and positivity to have faith and see everything through. I learnt a quote yesterday when looking into högskoleprovet which kind of resonated with me, so I thought I'd share it here, with you. It goes:
"The night is darkest just before the dawn. And I promise you, the dawn is coming."
-The dark Knight, 2008
To me, it pinpoints that the "downs" that inevitably come our way through the course of our lives and seems like it'll consume us whole is just temporary. And it's comforting because even though you know it's just a phase and that it won't always be so hard, it can be hard to imagine at times. That's why the promise of a "new dawn" can bring so much joy to the heart and so much strength to the spirit.
I had a good day today, and I really wish the same for you. I'm thinking about you a lot and missing you, but I know also that "our dawn" is coming, hopefully maybe even sooner than we might think.
I love you,
Hanna ❤️
