Sunday, January 5, 2014

RANT: 16 hours later....


Lying in bed, totally depressed. I wanted to get my hours straight, but somehow I still woke up around 2 pm. What is wrong with me?? I was excited to finally get my hours back, and of course I wake up super late despite going to bed at 10 last night. I didn't think I needed an alarm cause when I got up at 4 I was rather energetic, but still went to bed just to try to wake up around 8. But I never even heard that alarm!! Now it's 3.30 pm and a fucking slush all over the ground outside due to the snow coming and going again due to higher temperatures, so being outside without rain boots (which I don't have) is a complete no-no, it's a coal mine of darkness outside and I am depressed. Life sucks pretty bad right now. I don't have any friends and no one in my family wants to hang either. Don't know what to do with my life.  Not excited about anything.

I'm sorry I missed our talk. I am sad you stayed up, cause obviously I didn't come on even though you stayed up until FOUR. Don't do that to yourself baby, it's not worth it. We can always talk in the morning instead. Miss you <3

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  1. DavannaJanuary 5, 2014 at 10:18 PM

    You'll come around with your sleep honey. I know it! :)

    Maybe next week, the weather will surprise you <3
    It's still mid winter honey.. maybe this is how it is..
    I wish i could be there with you and keep you company <33

    You should treat yourself!
    Maybe take a walk and borrow someone's rain boots!
    Or Exercise! :)
    Draw some pictures. Or read Harry Potter
    Or download kindle on your mac and download a nice book
    there are tons of classics on there.
    Write some music :)
    Or make a little vocal cover :)
    There are a ton of nice things to do
    And I know you want to be with people, I'm sure they'll come around!
    Maybe you can try to make plans with people like get them ahead of time
    Ask for them a week ahead of time.

    I know that once you start something you'll get involved and it'll be fun
    give it a try honey.

    I'm not upset about staying up at all. It was a great effort to try to spend more time with my love <3

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